Four OLD poems..

These are old poems.. They were written when I was in a depressed state. I'll put a brief explanation before each one.





Why is it so hard was written when my ex (buckie) broke up with me. I was depressed and thought that I would never get over him, but I did. I'm happy with Eddie. I love him. :)

Why is it so hard?
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She thought she was over you.
That was something she thought she knew.

But now she's not so sure.
She thinks of you, she don't know what for.

You broke her heart.
You tore her apart.

She thought she was her again.
But that was then.

She don't know anymore.
She thought she closed that door.

Why are you inside her mind?
Why do u make her feel that inside?

Everytime she sees you, her heart skips a beat.
But to admit that is to admit defeat.

Even though she wants to yell.
There's another story her heart wants to tell.

She wants to forget u so much.
But she knows in her heart she misses ur touch.

She misses talking to u.
And everything else u used to do.

But most of the time,
She misses her friend, is that such a crime?

She doesn't know what to think,
about why she misses that link.

She doesn't wanna miss u.
But she doesn't wanna lose u too.

She was torn in two.
All cause by you.

She can't get u out of her mind.
She can't stop the feeling inside.

She really wants to get over u.
But it's so hard to do.

Just Friends was written about my best friend and ex (raven) It used to hurt me so much when someone would ask if we were dating, but we knew the truth we're Just friends. Always will be. I love my bestie, but not like that anymore. :)

Just Friends
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Just friends, that phrase kills me.
And my heart just won't hear the cree.

It wants to be more.
But it doesn't want to be tore.

Everytime it sees you, it cries.
Longing for you, it never dies.

You're what keeps it together.
You've kept it as light as a feather.

After it was broken in two.
It was mended, all by you.

You're it's bandaid.
It's healer, it's

maid.

It loves you so much.
It loves everytime we touch.

You're the only person it wants to talk to.
But that's something I won't let it do.

I've learned not to ever let it do that.
So it don't fly away like a bat.

It wants to trust you, and fall.
But is it worth it all?

Best friends for so long.
In my heart you'll always belong.

But we're just friends, for now.
And I don't know how,
to convince it of that,
But doing so would make it's beating flat.

Mirror, Mirror was another poem written in my dark days. I was depressed and didn't like how i looked in the mirror to myself. I didn't seem like me.

Mirror, Mirror
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If u look in a mirror.
You see that familiar stranger,
so u go nearer and nearer.
Now u see yourself clearer.

What you've seen is what u feared.
The person whose gone way off track.
Their eyes are teared.
Their face not cleared.

Dark circles under their eyes from stress.
Their mouth quivers.
Hair is a mess,
from all the lies they've yet to confess.

Now the mirror is shattered.
Your hands now bleed.
Arms battered.
Parts ot it now scattered.

Mirror, mirror in the floor,
who tells lies more and more?


Innocent was written after an ex broke up with me.(buckie) I didn't know why I hung on so long to him, when it was so obvious he didn't love me.

Innocent
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I'm sitting here in the deepest corner of my mind,
longing for something I'll never find.
The reason why,
You left me to die.
I wass so innocent, I couldn't have known.
That I could've flown.