Old poems that were edited..

Fall

Fall
That's what my heart says.
It says you're worth it,
worth it all.

You won't lie,
or cheat,
it's all okay,
Cause you'll catch me.

I've been hurt,
recently,
I don't want to be again.
I'm going to be alert.

I don't want to lose a friend,
like last time,
and the time before that.
It never works out in the end.

I don't know what to do,
my heart says do it,
friends,
family too.

Should I?
I don't know.
Can I?
I don't want to die.

Am I strong enough for it?
Healed enough?
Will it make it worse?
I need to use my wit.

Is it meant to be?
DO you even know,
how much I care?
Will you catch me?

I want to fall,
but I don't know.
I'm scared.
Not knowing if I want to risk it all.

I'm going to,
Here I go,
I want you to know,
that I love you.


Falling..

falling..


I don't know why..

You look through me, like I'm not here.
Like you're looking into a mirror.

I'm invisible, like a ghost.
And yet I'm the one who loves you most.

I'd do anything for you, no matter the cost.
But to you, I'm lost.

I watch quietly through my eyes,
after each day they both cry.

You said you used to care,
but I'm starting to think that's just hot air.

Stupid me believed your lies,
now each day my heart dies.

Why is it?
We just don't seem fit.

Different people from different places,
all I see are traces.

You're part of the popular crowd,
all crazy and loud.

I still love you,
no matter how much I don't want to.

I have someone who loves me,
but I reach for you like you're my only need.

He's sweet and actually cares,
two very different pairs.

You're a jerk who lies,
everything my heart defies.

My world isn't so bad,
but something always makes me mad.

I stand there watching quietly,
listening oh so silently.

My mind says move on,
easier said than done.
You walk up quietly,
whisper silently.
"I need to talk to you"
"I need to talk to you too"
I reply.
Oh D***, why can't I lie?